tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-69895381147850450282011-04-21T11:16:52.314-07:00Uzomanoreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6989538114785045028.post-26736271167947972862008-08-10T01:12:00.000-07:002008-08-10T19:37:28.898-07:00<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_6xZi-rkF1zY/SJ-Wc8GIs3I/AAAAAAAAAAU/uKpoJUT9VPk/s1600-h/rainbowG0608_468x479.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5233066715940172658" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 216px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 50px" height="236" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_6xZi-rkF1zY/SJ-Wc8GIs3I/AAAAAAAAAAU/uKpoJUT9VPk/s320/rainbowG0608_468x479.jpg" width="170" border="0" /></a><br /><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:arial;">My name is Suzenzoey, and this is my first blog. I have anxieties that I want to free myself of. I want to assist myself in freeing myself from this overwhelment I am experiencing in realizing what I have been accepting and allowing. I have been practicing being HERE, by awareness of my breathe. Inhale and exhaling with 4 count intervals. Though this is only at certain times very infrequently as I realize that I am Here. It will become more frequent with practice. I can no longer blame others, and I must now take self responsiblity for the reality.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">My world as I knew it to be has changed. It is hard and difficult when realizing what is really happening here in the world. I can not hide behind entertainment as before...I must face why I have entered relationships and realize that what I thought is real is not....</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">FEARS:</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself believe that I fear certain loud planes noises. </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to allow myself to experience sudden reactive anxiety within me from hearing a loud noise.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear the sound of gun fire. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I fear gun fire outside. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear facing this reality. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear facing what I have accepted and allowed to exist in this world. </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in fear from hearing a loud noise. </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear death. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear loosing me and what I have defined myself as.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear being killed and having to face a new reality. </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself by my relationships. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as being in a relationship. </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself by the relationship I have with my mom.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear losing all the memories that I believe define who I am. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as my memories.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear losing my father. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I feel guilty for not spending time with Father. </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regret not spending time with my dad because I fear facing me and what I have accepted and allowed myself to become.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am inferior to other people.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I not as intelligent as other people around me.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am not able to stand in this world alone. </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am not able to take care of myself alone in this world.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I need a relationship to be complete.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear losing my relationship and being alone in this world.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am not able to function normally at a job.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear dying and being killed.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to allow fear reaction to exist within as me as I hear noises. </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear War.<br />I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear bombs dropping from a plane.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear loud noises in the distance and believing it to be a bomb. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear facing this world and what I have accepted and allowed. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that Fear exists. </span></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6989538114785045028-2673627116794797286?l=suzen-anxities.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Uzomanoreply@blogger.com2